I did terribly today. I ate chocolate and peanuts that I shouldn’t have and now I feel gross. And then to top it off, I ate roast, potatoes, corn and gravy for supper. I feel even worse!
Not every day is like this, of course. I actually lost a few pounds last week, which is a good thing! But ugh!
I feel like something has changed mentally. I don’t have that drive like I used to have. I want to be thin, but I don’t really believe I’ll ever get there and so I self sabotage myself over and over again.
Maybe I don’t want it bad enough. Whatever it is, I HATE IT. I must change.
I can keep saying this over and over and over, but at least I haven’t given up. I’m still trying. I suppose this “healthy” thing is a lifelong commitment and I will have bad days along with the good. That makes me feel a little better. Like less of a failure.
Tomorrow, Jess and I are starting our summer challenge together, so that will be inspiration to get it together…AGAIN. And another girl has joined the competition so the stakes are higher. This time we’re counting “healthy checks” similar to WW. We are focusing on habits and healthy choices, not just weight loss.
I’m sorry I’m not very inspirational these days…this has definitely been a rough patch in my journey.
