Today was my weigh in day, which coincidently is also TOM. I gained, as a result of poor choices over the weekend, which, in retrospect, I believe were PROBABLY influenced by stupid hormones. I was a witch to deal with. Just ask my husband.
I honestly don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. I try, I fail, I try, I succeed, I try, I fail again…just this cycle, over and over again. I don’t know where to go for help. It’s not that I DON’T WANT to succeed, it’s that I can’t find the will power to do it? My emotions and stress get the best of me? My problem is not the plan, it’s following it. This battle is COMPLETELY mental.
Where do I start? Go to a therapist? I’m scared to do that. Change my life and rid myself of the stress? That feels like giving up, to an extent. Some things can be changed, and will be changed, but just not yet.
It’s easy to say JUST DO IT. But I have come to realize that it’s much more complex than that this time around. What changed? What am I doing differently? Why do I lack the motivation? How do I get it back?
If I had given up, I would weigh 288 lbs. again. I have still kept off about 60 lbs. That’s something. But if something doesn’t change, I will gain it all back. Sometimes I feel too overwhelmed to try to figure it all out—which is why I keep doing what I’m doing. At least I’m pretty much staying within a weight range.
Is there anyone out there like me? Someone who lost a lot of weight but then got stuck and gained some back? Struggled like this? Please help!
This week could be TOM, but the back and forth has been going on for MONTHS. So I understand today’s gain should come off next week—if I stick with it like I should. I’m looking at the big picture here and I need help if I want to reach my goals.
