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Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Too quiet

I've spent my life feeling awkward pretty much all of the time. I'm like a turtle, give me unfamiliar people and I disappear into my shell. I become quiet and reserved and it takes quite a bit of coaxing to get me out of my shell. And I have always hated that about myself. Around family, I'm a chatter box and I love to laugh. In social sitations, I am a totally different person and I can understand why people might even think I come across as rude. I'm really not. 

I've been thinking... Is this something I should just become comfortable with about myself or something I should worry about and try to change? Is being socially reserved a bad thing? I'm ok with one or two people, but beyond that I kind of shut down. Is being quiet ok? Does it impact me negatively? I'm ok with just enjoying listening, but I worry about coming across as weird or stuck up. 

As I get older, I don't get intimidated as often. I am comfortable with me, with my likes and dislikes, I'm ok with being me. Is being quiet me? Should I embrace it as just my personality or do I need to change? 

Specifically in social work or school situations with big groups I feel the same way. I don't want to appear as a slacker. My work proves I am not. I voice my opinion in other ways, but big meetings or large classes make me disappear inside my shell. I hope it doesn't impact me negatively, but I worry about that. Some people are extroverts and some are introverts, but does everyone understand that? I always hope my performance and track record would prove that my quietness is no indicator of being a slacker, because I am not. 

I guess I'm just voicing my worries here tonight. I hate the nervousness and anxiety that being socially shy brings. I've gotten better, but I don't know how others do it so naturally. So what do you think...is quietness a personality trait or a flaw?

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