Complacent - A Scary Thought

I have not posted my food pictures for the last couple of days for a couple of reasons. The obvious one, my eating hasn't been what it should have been, which is odd because you would think I would be ultra-motivated after meeting my 20 lb. goal. I have been doing really well until supper time. I know it is emotional eating and I MUST get it under control. My husband says I am not allowed to talk about work or school the entire weekend. :-P

I am starting to see physical results from my weight loss, which is awesome! This is kind of weird, but I start to feel good (understandably) but then I start thinking I can eat what I want (not understandably). Why do I feel like that? I need to lose A LOT more weight! I guess I need to keep telling myself that the more I lose, the better I am going to look and feel. Does anyone else have this problem? It's like my good behavior is paying off and I reward it with bad behaviour. Strange.

I came across an article this morning that was a lot of inspiration for me. You can view it here.

My plan for today is to stay on points 100% and get in some well needed exercise. I must keep going and I know that I can! I need to take a look at all that I have accomplished so far and be proud of my hard work instead of downgrading myself. I am the only person who accomplished this. It was ME and if I can lose 20 lbs, I can certainly lose even more!!

One of those days

I ate 1/2 a Panera bagel today at work because our client so generously provided them. How could I say no to a Panera bagel? That's one milestone I haven't reached. I have a hard time saying no to the things in the office when people periodically bring them in. Not a huge deal because I limit myself I guess.

I am soooo hungry tonight for some reason. I'm trying to stay out of the kitchen but I did have two slices of cheese when I came home. I know that it is probably due to my not eating enough at lunch time. I need to eat something filling and then I do ok.

I know it is also due to stress. Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing with my life (career wise). I'm a Junior in college and an English major. Sometimes I really hate my classes and wonder if this is really for me and other times I love it. I don't know what career options are out there for me. I got two papers back today and I got a C and a D. Uncalled of for me. I ALWAYS get A's on my papers. Except for the one time I got a B+. I know almost everyone else in the class didn't do very well either. But it still brings me down. I worry, I stress and then I go to the kitchen for comfort. This must be a coping mechanism that I came up with a long, long time ago and I need to learn new behaviors. Eating isn't going to solve anything.

Just felt like writing to get a few things off of my chest! Thanks for reading. :)

Weigh in Day- I did it!!!

I met my 20 lb. goal today! Right on the dot! I am so excited to have finally met this goal. Every time I have dieted in the past, I have never been able to get to the 20 lb. goal.

I lost 3.2 lbs this week also, which is the most I have lost so far I think! Taking pictures of everything I eat has really been helping me! It keeps me honest with myself.

So, I am on the lookout for a new pair of shoes for my 20 lb. goal reward! I decided I just couldn't spend $80 on the Puma's. I love them and everything, but that's just too expensive right now!

*I'll just keep doing my happy dance!* :)

Tuesday

For breakfast I had 2 cups Rice Krispys, 1 cup skim milk, 1/2 cup canned peaches, and 1 cup of V8 Splash- strawberry kiwi. (9 pts)

For snacks I had 1 pkg of Pringles Baked Wheat sticks and 1 medium apple. ( 3 pts)

For lunch I had a wrap made of 1 carb smart tortilla, 1 slice of turkey lunch meat, 1 slice of cheese. I also had 2 small clementines, 15 baked Doritos, 1/2 cup light vanilla yogurt and 1/2 cup blueberries. (8 pts)

For supper I had 1 salmon fillet, 1/2 cup low fat cottage cheese, and 1 sweet potato, roasted and cut into fries. (9.5 pts)

For dessert I had 1 oatmeal raisin cookie, and 1 Swirls Italian Ice cup. (4 pts)

For a snack later on I had 18 gobstoppers. (2 pts)

Monday

For breakfast I had 1 cup oatmeal with 1/2 cup blueberries and 1 1/2 cups skim milk. (5 pts)

For a snack at 9:00 I ate a banana, forgot to take a picture. (2 pts) and also 1 cup of Kettle corn. (1 pt)

For lunch I had 2 wraps (carb smart tortilla, 1 piece of cheese, 2 slices of turkey lunch meat), and 1 cup of canned pineapple. (7 pts)

For a snack on the way home from work I had 1 orange. (1 point)
For supper I had honey spice chicken, 1/2 cup low fat cottage cheese, 1 medium baked potato with 1/2 tbsp. of Light ICBINB, 2 Tbsp. of fat free sour cream. (10 pts)

For dessert I had 1 1/2 cups skim milk and 2 oatmeal raisin cookies. (5.5) and also my last Lindt Truffle from Valentine's Day. (2 pts)

Later on I ate Smart Pop Kettle corn and 18 gobstoppers. (3 pts)

This may not seem huge, but the fact that my Valentine's day candy lasted over a week is a big deal for me. In the past, I would have had it all eaten in 2 days. I still have a full size Ghiardelli chocolate bar left! I have to give myself a pat on the back for that one. Baby steps!

Sunday

I feel like I ate so much food today, but at the end of the day I still have .5 point left.

For breakfast I had 1 cup frosted mini wheat, 1/2 cup milk, banana and water. (6 pts)

For lunch I had one slice of homemade lasagna, 1/2 cup zucchini, 2 slices of garlic toast made with light wheat bread and a very small amount of light I can't believe it's not butter, Mediterranean blend and 2 cups of iced tea. (7.5 pts)

For dessert I had 2 Oatmeal Raisin cookies and 1 1/2 cups of skim milk. (5.5 pts)

Later on, I had a snack of a Lindt Truffle from Valentine's day. (2 pts)

I also had 2 small clementines. (.5 pt)

For supper I had sweet and sour shrimp on 1/2 cup long grain rice and 1 cup of green beans. (5 pts)

For dessert I had 2 Oatmeal Raisin cookies and a smoothie made of 1/2 cup light vanilla yogurt, 1/2 banana, and a very small amount of strawberries and blackberries. (5 pts)

Later, I had 2 cups of Jolly Time Kettle corn. (2 pts)

The scale has really been showing some losses this weekend. I hope so bad that I don't gain a bunch of weight by Wednesday again! I have a much lighter meal planned for Tuesday night, so hopefully that will help!

As far as exercise goes, I haven't gotten any since last Saturday! There are absolutely no excuses! I am just not making the time for it. I know that fitting the exercise into my day will make the weight loss go a lot faster. I really need to work on that!

Saturday

For breakfast I had 1 slice of light wheat toast, 1/2 tbs. reduced fat chunky peanut butter, 1 banana. (3 pts)
For lunch I had 2 cups iced tea, egg salad (2 eggs, 1 1/2 T. light mayo), 1 cup Campbell's tomato soup made with water, 1 roma tomato, and 5 saltine crackers. (9.5 pts)

For dessert I had 1/2 fat free vanilla pudding cup, 1 banana, and 1 square of German baking chocolate drizzled on top. Yummy! (4 pts)

For a snack I had 2 small clementines. (.5 pt) For supper I had 2 cups of skim milk, 1 whole wheat roll, 1 cup roasted asparagus, and Thai Peanut Chicken. (12.5 pts)

For dessert, 1 one homemade Oatmeal Raisin cookie. (2 pts)

I also had 1 pkg of Hershey's kissables while watching Marley and Me. (4 pts)

Friday Eats

For breakfast I had 1 slice light wheat toast, 1/2 tbs. of reduced fat chunky PB, 1 cup of V8 splash strawberry kiwi and 1/2 apple. (2.5 pts)
For a snack around 9:00 I had 1/2 cup blackberries and 1 pkg of honey wheat pringle sticks. (2 pts)For lunch I had 1 1/2 cups of Campbell's tomato soup made with water, 5 saltine crackers, fat free vanilla pudding cup, and 1 cup of grapes. (6.5 pts)

I got hungry around 1:30 and had a 100 calorie pack of Chips Ahoy from the machine in the break room. (2 pts)

Ok so far, right? Well, my husband and I had our tax appointment at night, so we decided we would go out for Mexican. I didn't get pictures of this as it was pretty busy in the restaurant and I didn't want to be snapping pictures. :-P I had about 12 tortilla chips with salsa, 1 soft chicken chimichanga (it's not fried, so I counted it as an enchilada), 1/4 cup refried beans. The chimichanga was WAYYY spicy for me, so I ended up using 1/4 cup of sour cream, 1/4 cup guacamole, and I also had about 1 tbps. of Queso dip. (20 pts).

Believe it or not, as I didn't eat as much early in the day, I still had 1 point left over after all of that...BUT.... We decided we wanted some dessert later, terrible I know, and I had a small turtle sundae at DQ. I couldn't find nutritional information for a small, so I used the info. for a medium. (14 pts!!!)

I still have my weekly points left, so that came out of there, of course. The funny thing is, I stepped on the scale this morning dreading the huge gain, and I had lost a bunch of weight...I'm not going to say how much because I'm sure I will gain by WI day. But these losses inspire me to keep going!

So eating wasn't the best yesterday, but I enjoyed it and I feel terrible this morning. Case in point, I'm always ready to eat healthy after eating such an unhealthy meal. So the journey continues...

Do I sound like I'm trying to justify myself!? WW does allow those extra weekly points though!

Thursday's eats

For breakfast I had one egg on light wheat toast, 1 cup 100% orange juice, 1 banana. (4 pts)

Around 9:00 I had an apple and throughout the day I ate 1 cup of grapes. (2 pts)

For lunch I had a turkey and ham sub from subway, 15 baked doritos and a fat free vanilla pudding. (9 pts)

For supper I had 1 whole wheat roll, 2 cups green beans, 1 cup canned sweet potatos, 4 oz. hamburger with bbq sauce. (14 pts)

For dessert, I planned on only having one, but I ended up having 2 slices of whole wheat banana bread with about 1 tbps. total cream cheese frosting. (4.5)

For a snack while cuddling up with my husband to watch a show, 18 gobstoppers (2 pts)
I think this taking picture thing is really going to help me. I am realizing that I am not eating enough throughout the day and have TONS of points left over in the evening. While I will go over my points 1.5 to eat the gobbstoppers, I have all of my weekly points left. Looking at these pictures, I eat a lot of food!!! But this is how much food I'm supposed to eat on the plan, I guess. Once again, I ate a lot of bread. Guess I shouldn't bake bread!!

Wednesday Eats

Here are pictures of what I ate Wednesday. Feedback is appreciated!! What can I be doing different? I am allowed 34 pts.

Breakfast: 1 cup oatmeal, 1 banana, 3 cups of water. (4 pts)

Lunch: 1 1/2 cups tomato soup with water, 15 saltine crackers (a little excessive)

2 slices light wheat bread, 1 piece cheese, 1 tsp. med. blend I can't believe it's not butter. 1/2 cup light vanilla yogurt, 1/4 cup raspberries, 1/4 blackberries. 1 tbps. ketchup. (11.5 pts) My lunch isn't usually this big, but I was home so I ate the grilled cheese and more tomoato soup than usual.
For snacks: I ate an orange around 9:00, and the beef jerky shortly after. (2 pts) I had 1/2 cup grapes around 3:45. I ended up not eating the apple that is pictured below. I also had a lindt truffle from Valentine's day for 2 pts.

For Supper I had 2 cups of iced tea, 1 glazed pork chop, 1 homemade whole wheat roll, 1 cup carrots. (10 pts)

For dessert I had 1/2 cup fat free vanilla yogurt with 1/2 cup strawberries, 1 slice of homemade whole wheat banana bread and I ended up putting about 1 tsp. cream cheese frosting on top of that. (3.5 pts)

I think I snacked too much today. What do you think? I know I went a little overboard with the bread today too. I baked the banana bread and the rolls today so I wanted to give them a try. I also drank about 9 cups of water total. I didn't get any dairy in, unless the ice cream and cheese count, I guess. I need to stop at the grocery store as we are out of milk.