Clean Eating Begins

Today is the first day of the clean eating endeavor. Unfortunately, I think I’ve had a bit of the “last meal” mentality and my weight was higher than ever (since losing) this morning. Another sign that I MUST DO SOMETHING.

I don’t know how many times I have said that I would never do a “no sugar” or “no white flour” type diet because it didn’t seem realistic. Does this ring any bells to any of you long time readers?

The fact that I am going to such drastic measures shows how desperate I feel right now. I am clinging to this like it’s my only hope. Please, Please, Please work for me. It’s really not a matter of whether a plan works or not…it’s whether or not I am going to find the mental strength to follow through. That’s the truth.

So for this week, I am trying a NO SUGAR, NO ARTIFICIAL SWEETENER, and NO WHITE FLOUR plan. And since I’m new at this and still using up what’s in the house—I may not be 100%—but it’ll at least be 90%.

I say that because I made ham & veggie soup yesterday using Campbell’s tomato soup as a base and it has sugar in. I was out of broth. I’m not sure if the ham was cooked with added sugar—I had leftovers in the freezer. But anyway, I’m eating it for lunch. It’s only 4 points + for a pretty big serving and full of veggies. I’m not going to sweat that one.

Over the past while, sugar has become a HUGE problem for me. I truly understand that something needs to be done. I’m hoping that completely eliminating sugar from my diet (for a while) will help jump start my weight loss. I’d almost be willing to try the Atkin’s diet right now just because, whether healthy or not, I know I would see the weight fall off. This is probably not a very good mentality, and my husband would NEVER let me follow through with this, but it shows how hopeless I’m feeling right now.

So, clean eating…I’m sorry for all of my questions lately. I’m just trying to understand what it all means and I need all the help I can get. I ordered Tosca’s book and am waiting to get it in the mail. That should clear up a lot of my questions.

And as I begin today—I am SCARED. Scared that I am going to go into sugar withdrawal later on today. Scared that I won’t find the mental strength to say NO. Scared that this isn’t going to work and for some reason I’ll end up gaining even MORE weight. I think I’m mostly scared of failure. Scared. Scared. Scared.

There ya have it. I will update you on how today goes. So far so good! Oatmeal for breakfast with natural cashew butter and a banana. I also had a glass of skim milk. One meal down!