Personal Update, Struggles, and Style

Hello everyone and happy Thursday!

I decided to do my personal update post today instead of including it with my weigh in stats tomorrow. Mostly, I just need to talk about what has been going on lately so I can get my head on straight.

I accidently ate too many points on our day trip. I say accidently because we ended up going to Perkins and baby was fussy, super energetic and hard to handle! I wasn’t able to look up my points until after we left and then realized that I had eaten more points than I had. Bummer. I also could have made better decisions in general.

So I had best intentions for the following days and then I let stress get in the way—which I always seem to do.

Baby girl has had some “intestinal” problems since April 30th. I feed her very well—lots of veggies, I’ve added pureed fruit since I can’t get her to eat it otherwise, whole grains, etc. I had even started adding a bit of apple juice to her water, took my mother’s advice and added 1 tsp of Karo syrup to her bottles (I never thought I would do something like this but when your baby is in pain you’ll try anything!), gave her massages, etc. I was doing everything right and things weren’t improving. She was in so much pain and the doctor’s office didn’t seem to understand my concern, which made me more frustrated because I felt so helpless!

I started adding prune juice to her bottles and to her water. I made bran muffins, kept up the foods with high fiber content, and made sure she was drinking enough water. I eventually had to go to a last resort and give her a glycerin suppository, which the doctor recommended (the kid’s version). That finally helped and everything started to work normally again—almost too much! You’re welcome for this information, I just wanted to talk about it…lol.

Before I had a baby, I was sure I wouldn’t be able to handle boogers, poop and everything else. “Gross!”, I’d say. But you know what? When you become a mama, all of the sudden none of that matters anymore and you take care of business. I’ve been pooped on, peed on, and vomited on more times than I can count and I have never even gagged. Funny how that works out!

So my point in sharing TMI is to say that I have been stressed out this week…and also hormonal. Add nights with baby girl waking up numerous times. Bad, bad combination.

I was tracking everything I ate whether I thought it was “good” or not. And then about yesterday I stopped tracking. I didn’t go crazy and eat everything in sight, but I probably didn’t need that sundae with hot fudge and Reese’s.

Sigh. In keeping with my goal to have a “survivor mentality”, I take full responsibility. If I am going to “survive”, I will have to learn how to handle stress better. How long have I been saying this? I think I should talk to my counselor about this…maybe I can finally get some help!

On another note, my anxiety continues to improve and I am feeling much more normal—Yay!

In other news, we’re having baby girl’s 1 year photos taken this Saturday. I decided to add on the cake smash option too. It will be so cute. We’re using the same photographer who took her newborn pics—super cute! This lady is so talented. She’s also going to shoot a couple photos of us as a family.

I have baby girl’s outfits, and have hubby’s outfit planned but I don’t have anything yet! I ordered a custom chevron skirt on Etsy and it just shipped—it might be here by Saturday and it might not—so I will have to plan otherwise. I’m really hoping it gets here and it fits. I’m going to go shopping and am going to try to find a denim top to wear with my maxi skirts—I was looking at fashion on Pinterest and it looks like this is in style right now? What do I know…but I think it’s cute anyways!

This is the look I’m going for—minus the necklace and style of headband. My skirt will be aqua and white. (Pinterest link)

If I can’t find a denim “top”, I will try to find a denim jacket—this is the look.  (Pinterest link)

What do you think?

Anyways, I better get moving because I have a counseling appointment this afternoon and will have to get baby fed, bathed, and dressed before then…and myself too!