Tears of Joy: Weigh in Day

I woke up this morning feeling like I was going to gain. You know the feeling. I was so thirsty (despite having drank a lot of water yesterday) and felt bloated. I waited as long as I could before stepping on that scale, and when I did, I did so with my eyes closed.

I tapped the scale with my toe to turn it on. Eyes squeezed shut, I stepped on. I cautiously peeked out of one eye and saw 210.8.

I blinked and all wide eyed, I looked again. 210.8?! What?

I lost weight this week! 1.6 lbs. to be exact. I couldn’t believe my eyes and actually had to step on a few times to be sure.

And the more I thought about it- the more I realized why I couldn’t accept the fact that the scale read 210.8 this morning. I never remember weighing under 212 in my life and today, I passed that by. Subconsciously, I never thought that day would come. I didn’t think it possible.

And then the tears came. It’s moments like that when I realize how much this means to me. How much I want this. How happy being successful at losing the weight makes me feel. How I’m gaining a life I never knew I could have.

I’m not going to be that token “fat girl” much longer. Maybe someday I won’t feel like I need to keep my head down when I’m walking through a crowd of people anymore in an attempt to hide my almost 300 lb. frame. If I can’t see them, they won’t notice me right? Maybe someday the anxiety that I feel all of the time regarding all social situations will start to fade away. Maybe someday when I hear people laughing, I won’t think they’re laughing at me. As I become more comfortable with myself and learn to believe in myself- it opens so many doors. It’s ok to have self confidence. It’s ok to believe in myself. Look what believing in myself has done so far- I’ve lost 77.2 lbs. I’m just over halfway to goal- but I know I can do this.

And when I told hubby what I weighed, the tears came again. And hubby was so proud of me.

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And now on to your scheduled programming…

For breakfast this morning, I had 2 slices of light wheat toast with Almond butter and a sliced banana along with 1 cup of 1% milk for 8 points.

Our toaster is on its’ way out. The toast is either burnt or not done enough. Today, it wasn’t toasted enough. Bleh!

It was a beautiful day outside- as viewed from my office window. When I went to get the mail- it was BITER cold!

On my first break, I was craving a glass of milk. I wasn’t really HUNGRY- just wanted some milk. I decided since I had already had a cup of milk today, I would have a yogurt- same thing, right? Light Peach yogurt for 2 points. I never did get over that craving for a glass of milk though…

And I was reminded why I love peach yogurt- I LOVE LOVE LOVE it. But I do think AE Dairy’s Greek Clementine yogurt has replaced peach as my favorite yogurt flavor.

I was hungry by lunch time! I had a BBQ chicken salad with tomatoes, avocado, feta and flax seeds. I was very helpfully informed that I need to grind the flax seeds to get the benefits- but they tasted so good whole on my salad on Monday that I had to make it that way again! 8 points.

For dessert, I had FF/SF chocolate pudding for 2 points.

On my last break, I had an orange for 0 points. Yesterday, I thought I was buying a bag of oranges and I actually bought a big bag of grapefruits- and I can’t eat them because of the BP meds I’m on! How disappointing- but we’ll give them to Hubby’s parents.

I also brought a cup of Duchess Grey tea with me for 0 points.

But it wasn’t long until I got to sign out a bit early—so I didn’t even get to start drinking the tea!

I went outside right away to get some shoveling done again- thanks to the blanket of snow we got again last night! It wasn’t as much snow as on Monday- but it was enough to shovel. This time it took me 30 minutes and I burned 160 calories. I count shoveling snow in the winter as activity- it’s a good workout and my muscles are sore afterwards. It earned me a couple of AP’s anyway!

My tea was just the right temperature by the time I got done shoveling. A nice warm drink after shoveling snow outside enduring a wind chill of 3 degrees! But at least the sun was shining- that always does a person good!

For supper, I made chili dogs with light wheat bread, FF Hot dogs, vegetarian chili and 2% cheese. I also had green beans and dill pickles. 7 points. I didn’t realize dill pickles are free now!

For dessert, I had a Skinny Cow Chocolate ice cream sandwich for 4 points.

I drank A LOT of water today. My new water bottle makes me drink more water. I just love it!

You can win one too- along with a fabulous prize pack from Yoplait Fiber One with their new Blueberry flavor! Check it out!

That leaves me with 2 points left for the day- success!